A year from now.

Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in silence and short remark,
I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were, what happened?
You were a priority, was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?

Rewind.

i dont just like you for who you are. I liked you for what i am when i'm with you.

My night has become a sunny dawn when i'm with you.

Your words are my food.

I'll always remember you by.

Goodnight.

Rewind

How I wanted you here by my side
I know what I said but I lied
It looked like a laugh but I cried
Oh, I wish I could push rewind

Oh, stupid pride it just can't hide the holes inside my heart
'Cause I need you here with me
Oh, I wish that I could take it back, I'd go back to the start
And tell you all the things that I feel

'Cause everything is different now
I'd really like to tell you how

How I wanted you here by my side
I know what I said but I lied
It looked like a laugh but I cried
'Cause I wish I could push rewind

I saw you on the corner holding hands with someone new
Happy as a boy could be
Love was in your eyes and yeah she looked the same way too
It's funny that was almost me

Now I wanna be there by your side
I know what I said but I lied
I wanted to laugh but I cried
'Cause it's too late to push rewind

Oh no, oh no, no, no, no
No, no, no, no, no
I know what I said but I lied
Oh no, oh no, now I cried

Just too late, too late, too late, too late, too late
Oh no, it's just too late, too late, too late, too late
I can't push rewind, oh no, no
It's too late

memoir's

I am the one with the tie. next to the teacher :) was a prefect and it's kinda unbelievable. Those glory days hahaha

once upon a time

okay so here's the story. Actually it's not a story. it's my childhood past.

There's a girl involved in my childhood past. We only talked once. For a few mins. She asked my name and all. It was during the racial harmony art exhibition. I was more nerdy back then - with my spectacles, side parting hair + gel on it and high waist shorts. I was very shy and quiet and she talked to me. I was very happy cause she was my eye candy. The only girl in primary school that i had a crush on. I had a flashback a few years ago about her and it's been nine years or is it 10? A decade? i tried finding her on friendster (back then) and now facebook but to no avail.

Description.

She was friendly looking, with a tied up hair, wore spectacles, she's super smart. She was in the third smartest class in school and everything about her was perfect. Up till yesterday, thats how she was in my mind. That's how i'd expect her to be in the present. With spectacles, looking smart and cute.

Everytime i typed in her name in the search box and i couldnt find her. In my mind, i thought she'd migrated to study or something. Eventually i found one of her bestfriend on facebook and i asked her. She told me h was in her friend's list. I was more than happy. She gave me her facebook name and....that was when everything came to a disappointment.

1. There was a guy in the picture. I assumed it's her bf and yes it is.

2. In her pictures, she had piercings on her eyebrows.

3. She drinks and smoke.

4. Apparently my friend knows her and she's even more "wild" than i thought.

i didnt think that things can be more worst after seeing her pictures. you cant judge someone anyway. but after i heard things from my friend, i got even more disappointed.

The cute girl, my primary school eyecandy turned out to be someone whom i didnt expect her to be. Oh well.

i wont be making this a great post for myself. I need to admit that i'm feeling shitty. Just plain shitty right now. I am sorry but i can't help it. But i'll get better tomorrow and the day after and followed by another day etc. i tried entering the portal even though it looks like it's closing, slim chances of me getting through it but at least i've tried. never have i seen myself...........................................no use continuing this. It'd make things harder. I read, i cry, might as well, i watch sad movies. It's my blog, i need to feel good reading it. Not the other way round. Whatever happens,

it is just a ride.

i'm hungry and i need to go to the toilet. hahaha byebye. I promise the next post will be a proper one. :)

Sum up sum up.

hi, it's the eve of hari raya haji and i'm gonna wish my fellow muslim friends a selamat hari raya. basically today, i reach home from camp around 2 plus and i slept all the way till seven plus? I think i sleep more than a pig does but it doesnt really matter as long as it feels good. :D So, shariff asked me to lepakz with him but i couldnt cause i had something to do and they went home quite early but then i decided to join harry and co out. We drove to bukit panjang to pick something up from harry's aunt's house. Well, you know there's a recent incident about the slashing case at bukit panjang? well, there are alot of gangsters lor over there slacking under the void decks and all. Wah piang. i was scared sia. I wanted to buy chocolate milk from 7- eleven and there were these 3 guys ah, i assume that they're mats because of the way they walked and all. I dont dare see them in their eyes cause nowdays right, gangsters wont use fists but instead they'll use weapons. :O

Blablabla, i wanted to find acafela but they were sold out! FUCK. it's my fav drink ah but then it had to be sold out. :( So i got the M chocolate drink instead hehehe it's much bigger in size and it's nice but not as awesome as the drink i wanted. But whatever. Then we drove to pick the guys up and went to eat at rasa rasa. nothing much to say about that place cause we only ate then we left for yishun dam for fifteen minutes or so then we left for Orchard! hahaha sat at macdonalds and talked for a while. Orchard is like a ghost town la even on the eve of a public holiday. -.-''' cmon people, you have to enjoy the nightlife ah. must be more sporting a lil bit. hehe

The guys were sleepy so they went home but me and harry went to have our breakfast at Admiralty's mac. Yum yum. when i got home, i told nicole about it and she was jealous hahahaha i talked to her cause both of us cannot sleep and we talked crap. scolding each other and stuffs. so cute la that girl :) And she's sweet cause she accompanied me throughout the night. Thanks ;) Time check : 6:19am and i'm not sleepy.

And today maybe i'll go look for azza at night and take my shirt that she took from the shop for me ^^ thanks eh. Hmm in the afternoon, i might be going to my aunt's place and eat some good raya food! Oh! i also had paddle pop just now ^^

Okay la. i want to try to sleep. Dont want those eyebags to come out again. hehe goodnight!

My day was okay.

today i spent my day watching soccer matches on tv. HAHA i'm kinda disappointed with the results though. Aiya whatever la. If they win the cup, i wont get to share the prize money also. HAHA Anyway, i love the drink a cafe la. It is in vanilla latte flavour and it's a drink you have to try! DIE DIE must try! Die already also must try. It was introduced by my friend and i love it so much because the bottle is super cute. I dont know how to describe it but i'll take a picture of it and show ya guys soon okay? :D

Gosh, it's 3am and i'm still wide awake and i'm type random stuffs on blogger.com. HAHAHA yknow, i love talking to Cherie ler, a friend of mine. She always has some topics to discuss about and she's damn funny lah. She told me about how she bought a dress that was very big but because it was damn cute, she bought it! And i told her she'd look like she's drowning inside the dress itself lor. But i really wanna see how funny she'll look in that dress! Gotta meet up with her soon.

I really need to catch up with my friends soon ah. It's been quite a while since i met them. Sigh. i've been feeling quite tired ah these past few days. Why ah? I dont know. I just feel like i'm a 54 year old guy. Maybe it's inside me :o just maybe. hahaahah but whatever. i have to kick this lazy habit and just force myself to not be lazy hokay?

Anyway, the gangster parang thingy is kinda scary actually. They're playing with knives now :o it used to be fists but now it's parangs and knives. OMG. Dear fellow friends, it's very dangerous to carry those kind of weapons around. You can cut yourself and be critically injured. Not scared uh? So, to be safe, stay away from those things and let's have world peace. :D no bloodshed, no screams, no cryings, no nothing. wouldnt it be great? I hope nothing will get too serious uh. I scared you know. o.o hahaha

Alright la. i'm tired already. I wanna go to sleep. Take care people!

i'm in love with my most awesome girlfriend :)

Introducing, Diana!

lovelovelove

hello hi heya !

"i will lead a new life, one day at a time.

hopefully all turns well.

i will be as honest as i can be.

righteous hopefully.

so to all that i have hurt or wronged, i'm really sorry.

let us all lead a normal life minus hatred.

thank you.

i no longer will hate anybody,"

Hokay! Let's start blogging once again like how i used to. I read my archives right from my first blog post and you know, i laughed and i really love myself. I was envious about how i was. I was a funny guy and all but now, erm.. relek alr la brudder. HAHA no la, i can see the difference of my posts back then and with those recent ones. At one point of time, i didnt know that i was that funny ! No wonder i used to have ALOT of readers sia. Not surprised....not surprised hahahah actually right, i was thinking about buying an iphone 4 sia but then i thought about it. What if i'm broke? Then i only have my iphone 4. -.-''' cannot eat it, cannot ride it, can't POSSIBLY sell it cause then i'll be one of the most dumbest person on earth. Anyway, I heard this saying somewhere and it goes something like this, "i want to teach you how to fish, not just to eat fish" Quite cool hor. But if you dont like fish, you can change it to chicken or bird or squid or whatever la. OH OH! did you know? i heard that china built a 15 storey high building within 6 days! that is so OMFG! They work 24 hours straight is it? Woah, if it's really true, i really salute them man. Confirm all of their body like hulk hogan lor. If their body like beansprout, i doubt they can do it hehe

1 more year to NS! i hope there's something like they'll send us over to iraq or what hehe then can have a little taste of the "real world" chey. But it would be an experience ah. As long they dont have rocket launchers then i'll go LOL ah, i can hear my stomach calling out for help. I am so hungry. I WANT TO EAT! Who's hungry? Come and eat with me. HAHAHA just kidding. I'll be back soon guys. i really WILL be active on blogger and nuffnang soon. I WILL. watch me. :)

byebye

Bruno mars - Grenade

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss, Had your eyes wide open -
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh You’ d watch me burn down in flames You said you loved me you're a liar Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

we're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine,

Shit talking up all night,

Saying things we havent for a while,

A while, yeah.

Hi! in this post i just wanna blurt out everything that i'm feeling inside haha maybe it'll really help me forget or something. Basically i was in love. My first love. haha Erm, i thought (like how everyone did) from the start that it'll go well but it didnt. My relationship lasted for a short while and i'm not going to tell you how short it was. When she asked for the break up, i asked myself, what the hell did i do wrong but i cant seem to find anything and she said it was just her.

i thought being friends after that will be easy but nope, it's not easy cause from lovers to friends, the transition is hard. Like what if, you're friends with her but we all know that you still have feelings for her and she went out with someone else or she calls others darling and other things too. Ouch yeah? But i try not to think about it.

i tried to work things out and i'd accept anything such as since you're busy and all, we wont meet that often, or text that often or something. But you didnt want that with me. i gave it a thought, like if a person like someone else, then go ahead and i wont stop what you want to do but really, it hurts inside.

I still think about you every single day but it's a bad thing cause i know you like someone else and sometimes i'll imagine you being with him. hahaha i'd rather have amnesia and forget about all that la really. I'm feelin kinda ashamed cause i'm trying so hard and your friends can see it and they told you to totally ignore me. hahaha i hope i wont bump into any of them outside or i'll just act as if i dont see them. HEH

But i'm thankful at the same time cause i hate people having scandals, who will cheat and when i was in a relationship, i'm not like those people. i know that i'm gonna be faithful to my future girlfriend. But i dont think it'll be soon but who knows :)

i once said "i want you to be my first and the last" but somehow i can see it getting more and more unreal. hahahaha

Ciao.

internet up!

I've not been online cause of my internet problem with mac and i just solved it like five mins ago. hehe. i'll update a proper post soon. Not inspired to post one now. :)

Facts about me. I'm so kental I know. Haha I'm twenty but I only had 1 ex girlfriend and it didn't work out. Actually I don't know if it's considered a relationship but I don't think so cause it takes two hands to clap but it's only me. Ok whatever, anyway, another fact about me, I haven't kissed a girl. Lol kental I know but I don't give a fuck. I don't like it going around kissing girls. I just want the "one". It's going to be hard but I know she's out there somewhere. In my whole life I've only dated 2 girls. Hahaha I've never asked any girl's number outside. Overall you can say that I'm a coward. Or maybe I'm gay? Hahaha I detest people who cheat. I just wanna tell them to stop but I don't wanna make any enemies. So I just let it be. I'm too nice I know. Sometimes I wonder why I was not born a playboy. It'll be easier and more fun that way. I don't even know how to date. Fml

Better in Time.

Scars

I tear my heart open.
I sew myself shut.
My weakness is.
That I care too much.
And my scars remind me.
That the past is real.
I tear my heart open.
Just to feel.

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down.
And I just wanna be alone.
I'm pissed 'cause you came around.
Why don't you just go home?
'Cause you channelled all your pain.
And I can't help you fix yourself.
You're making me insane.
All I can say is.

I tear my heart open.
I sew myself shut.
And my weakness is.
That I care too much.
And our scars remind us.
That the past is real.
I tear my heart open.
Just to feel.

I tried to help you once.
Against my own advice.
I saw you going down.
But you never realized.
That you're drowning in the water.
And I offered you my hand.
Compassion's in my nature.
Tonight is our last end.

I tear my heart open.
I sew myself shut.
And my weakness is.
That I care too much.
And our scars remind us.
That the past is real.
I tear my heart open.
Just to feel.

I can't help you fix yourself.
But at least I can say I tried.
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life.

I can't help you fix yourself.
But at least I can say I tried.
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life.

I tear my heart open.
I sew myself shut.
My weakness is.
That I care too much.
And my scars remind me.
That the past is real.
I tear my heart open.
Just to feel.

I tear my heart open.
I sew myself shut.
My weakness is.
That I care too much.
And our scars remind us.
That the past is real.

I tear my heart open.
Just to feel.

Patience

I've been nice throughout. Is it real that we cant be too nice ? And that people will take advantage of that kindness? Am i too easy to be fooled? I think if it's some other guy, they'll just dont give a fuck. whatever, i have more important things to do now. Ciao

My horoscope.

Aries Men

He always let other people walk in front of him, but he will get there first. He is a very careful guy and small obstacles won’t make him fall easily even he thinks life is a very serious matter. He is as romantic as any other Zodiac. He could look gentle, but inside he is as strong as steel.Once he determines to do something, he is serious about doing it well. He will keep any pressure or insult deep down inside without showing emotion. You will never see his emotion of burden or disappointment and always wonder what he thinks or feels. He will be well kept his feeling.

You will never see a guy in this Zodiac involving in other people business. He always concern with his own business. Sometimes he can be talkative, but he will never give anyone advice if he has not been asked. If you ask for advice, he will certainly give you one. He respects elderly and senior, so you will see he is the type who visits his parents steadily or often.

He is a slightly shy but also a stubborn person. He will find many ways to make you happy when you are with him, till you realize he is the important person for you. Once he is in the “Power Position”, he will use his power gently. He is a good leader and “Gentleness” is one of his effective methods for exploiting his power. It is although he is borne to be a leader.

He never hides his ambition, and he is a workaholic. He will not take any position that he has no control. He will work very hard to reach his goal and satisfaction.

Compliment from his boss or superior are never enough for him, he wants his reserved reward. His deep insecurity makes him reach and collecting valuable things and this you may think he is stingy. Actually he could easily spending money to buy things, traveling or pay for things that makes him happy and he think necessary for his need. He care what other people think of him and want to get good comments or compliments.

Outside he looks like stone and steel, but inside he is a fragile person. He will hide and cover up weak emotion and his sadness in order to maintain and keep up his “Image”. One method of cover up you could easily notice is suddenly if he is quiet, cold, or act very strong or very secure. Often, he feels insecure, even he is serious about his life and his own surrounding.

This is the man who never hurries to get marry, so hardly sit back and regret about his marriage later. If he gets marry, he need to be very certain and very sure. It will take a long time for such decision, so if you tell him that you are “breaking up” , you better forget him for good because he will never coming back. He always keeps his promise. If he said he will meet you in your place in 2 hours then he will be there, unless there is a serious accident or unavoidable things happen.He hates people who are late for date or any appointment. He likes to think woman should be a follower and take care of family and working is a man duty. He does not like to compete with his girlfriend or his wife at work because competition already exists with himself and other people. He will be very proud if he can afford and care for his family. Do not try to overpower him or insult him, he cannot stand it.

He likes to be in control of every things, every situations. He like a “Classy Woman”, if she also comes from a good family then it is Plus. It will make him feel proud and very ego about her status. Flashy type of woman, forget it. He likes a perfect or a nearly perfect housewife. He tends to be possessive. He will not tell you if he is mad at you, but will act very moody to show you instead. He likes to hear sweet word and compliment so you can get his interest that way. If he approaches you to ask you out, do not act too stubborn or fooling around too much.

He will get tired and just disappear. He has to feel confident when he is around you, so knowing this fact you should know what to do, right! If you want him, you have to make him feel like he is the most important person for you. He likes a kind hearted woman, polite and can get along with his family. When he feels sad, do not leave him alone, but be very supportive. Kind words and your smile will win him over, so this strong man will be like a chicken in your palm.

Have a break, have a kit kat

:))))) hello! i'm back!

Thinking, every single day, without fail. Finding solutions but to no avail, it's draining me out, big time. Because of that, i've been too tired to stay happy, too tired to go out. It's making me cranky.

Now also, as i'm typing this, i'm still thinking of you.

Singfest was awesome! didnt go for the last day though haha but it's okay :) Kanye west, lupe fiasco, katy perry and many more. *faints* Syiok lor. hehe. This post is gonna be quite short, as in i'll sumarise what happened. For today, went out with friends to have dinner at this restaurant ah. I kena scam lor, i thought it's "springy noodle with chicken sausage and egg" which was on the menu la but instead it was maggi mee with sausage and egg. -.- damn. 4.20 lor. But the enriched chocolate was damn awesome i tell you hehehe :))

Hey

I want the best for you.

"There comes a point in your life when you realize

who matters, who never did,

who won't anymore...and who always will.

So, don't worry about people from your past,

there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future."

Cool friday isnt it?

I had a dream. A very stupid dream but maybe it's to make me realise something? In that dream you told me that i'm like F and I won't give up and it's like him . I dont like to be compared or whatsoever. Stupid dream.

ANYWAY! i've been chosen to write a review about a Canadian cafe that's coming to Singapore real soon! They'll sell smoothies, coffee, expresso, pastry, fresh sandwiches and all. Can't wait yeah ;) They'll open their outlet in Singapore real soon.

Take a chill pill.

If there were pills, an emotion kinda pill, it'd be great. You choose how you wanna feel everyday. I'd get addicted to it for sure :) i'll definitely love the happy pill hahaha

Okay, so here's a quick update. I'm going to Singfest! to watch my girlfriend, KATY PERRY (Y)

I wanna try snowboarding, cool shit man. I had the worst nasi pataya ever. I love to hang out with my guy friends! Even though sometimes i have to go home early :/ i got to know new friends too and one of them is hella cute. ^^ and she can play the guitar :0 ahahaha

I love S so much.

Take it off

Life is more complicated than i thought and there's some things that wont go the way that you expect it to go. Denial, lies, and many more, i hate it. I'll fill this space myself and i'll make it my own. The feeling is not gonna change, it'll just get abandon somewhere, i dont know where.

Fate, it's unpredictable, i cant even know what's in store for me even though sometimes i try so hard. I have alot of friends that will make my life much much more happier. I cant get over it, i'll just get used to it. The person that you least expect that will hurt you, they might be the one hurting you in the end.

For the past few days, i made myself sound pathetic and i'm tired of it already. The feeling of sadness, depression, worried and all. I'll just put it aside. There's some other important things that i have to make space for. I wont prioritise things that is not worth keeping.

I'll be looking foward in what's in store for me in the future, like i said, life is unpredictable.

i want us to work out real bad. But time will tell.


and the truth is, i still love you like how i did.

I hate myself

Why? because i'm inexperienced and i made a mistake. What i did these past 2 days was just annoying, wrong, irritating and it's just not me. I THOUGHT it's the definition of not giving up but nah, come to think about it, it's stupid and annoying. If it was me also i'll get annoyed. I realised my mistake and i hate myself for that cause sometimes a mistake can just destroy anything which i hope that it wont happen to me. Forgive me.

Miracles do happen.

I believe that there's something behind everything that has happened, definitely. The thing that i can do now is only hope for the best. :) Gonna meet Sue today!

It's all natural.

I'm just scared that it'll happen again. Yes, i'm confused now.

Driving

My girlfriend have been asking me to take my driving practicals and fortunately i did. I'm so lazy sometimes but i'll force myself and gawd, it's tiring lor! I wanna get it done and over with so i can drive the ...................... hahahaha my girlfriend will be the first one to tompang me first. Till then.

YOU

Love? I used to think it's something that will hurt someone somehow. I don't know if i'm living in denial or i'm just afraid to just face it. I have crushes for girls in the past and some, just for fun and some, just went wrong. I used to fear falling in love with someone so whenever i feel like i'm going to fall for a girl, i'll just back away. I'm just too scared to fall in love cause i'm scared of getting hurt. Frankly speaking, i've never been hurt by my friends or even my family. So, being hurt only once could be a heavy blow to me.

But all that changed when i met a girl who's not like any other. A girl who made me be myself and who changed my point of view about all these things. I told her about how i'm not into all these relationship stuffs in the first place and how great it is to be single. Day by day, talking and meeting her, i actually got jealous when she talked about other guys, i got worried when she fell sick and how she made me feel so happy when i got to meet her. For once, i thought of just deleting all the feelings that i have grown towards her but she's just like a missing piece in my life that i've been looking for all this while.

I'm not like who i was. It was so comfortable to be with her that i don't mind if she asks ALL her friends along as long as she's there :) I just like who you are, i don't want you to try anything else, you don't have to cause you're just perfect. You always complain about your hair and stuff but i think it's every girl's dream to have a hair like you. It's every girl's dream to be like you dear.

I'll try to make your life a memorable one, i'll cherish all the memories that we'll have. I know that i can't be the perfect boyfriend but i'll try to be near to perfect, just for you. Cause you know what? Cause i love you :)

Give me novacaine

Mood: Happy

Music: Eminem feat Rihanna - Love the way you lie

It's been five or six months since i've updated my blog? And finally i'll update it now. I've lost my touch in how to blog interestingly like how i used to blog but it'll come back for sure. So! How's life for me so far? It's been great! Have not been working most of the time and i've found someone (:

I guess it can be better if i do what i used to do here on my blog. Write reviews and get paid, invited to events and stuff! Missed those days.

It's the world cup fever now but i'm not into all these actually. Not interested lor, i rather go to sleep and see the results the next morning. :) So if i tell you i'm watching a soccer match, that means i'm with my friends or watching it with my family. But my friends are going to come over my house to watch the finals.

Did you guys realize about how some people are obsessed with Korean singers? They are like everywhere. They'll brag and brag about how awesome they are like every minute. Get a life? Yup. I must say that Korean songs will be the next big thing but it's irritating lah to see people talk about them 24/7.

I'm going to stop now. Will upate again sometime soon. Bye!

i love you Suhaiza

May 23.

Lookin out of my window. The sky is so peaceful, but i bet it's hot cause it's damn near to the sun right? Maybe. Who knows it's super cold cause there's like water particles in the clouds. Totally missed the soccer match this morning. I'm going to Metro now.

Out, out, out and out.

If i think of the upcoming days, i'll get super stressed. I have many things to attend :( haiya. I want to go out with my other friends also cannot. What a luck. Okay, let me list down where i'm going.

• Friday morning, soccer at Kendrick's court.
• Friday night, my colleague's birthday pit.
• Saturday, working.
• Sunday morning, soccer match at Bukit Timah, somewhere i don't know where.
• Sunday evening, gym + jogging.
• Monday, meet up with my poly mates.
• Tuesday, rest. If not, i'll die.
• Wednesday morning, work.
• Thursday, gym + jogging.
• Friday, soccer at Kendrick's court.
• Saturday, going out with my colleagues.

Omg, see! i'm very very busy. There's alot to list down but i'm lazy to type haha Can't wait for June though. I am going to make myself free! To go out with Suhaiza ^^ anyway, i just reached home from jogging and i'm supposed to meet my friends BUT i think i'm feeling lazy lah hahaha

I love my hair and Katy perry, you're still hot. :)

What the fucks.

Distance is nothing :)

Anyway, wanted to watch losers just now. The time stated was 12.15am and so we bought the ticket lor. After seating down, suddenly there's this malay show that came out. o.o we suddenly went out lor to see if we were in the right place. Then someone told us, our manager is expecting you guys. She apologised cause the timing havent been refreshed and we got the wrong ticket. We asked what alternatives did we have then she said we can let you watch any movie.

We selected the last song. BUT it was fricking boring i swear hahaha and we went out. Too draggy la the show. Everytime kiss and kiss. Like EVERYTIME. -.- Went to macs.

Going to a nike sale tomorrow. SUHAIZA, go get your phone fixed, so boring leh cannot contact you :(

View of life.

Somehow, the life that we're living is kinda similar but there's some extra features that'll add some excitement or sorrow in your lives. It is quite cool la to understand how a small thing can change someone's life. hahah i read a book about life so yeah. I learned something about it. I always wonder why i'm still single, and i realised that i don't give proper attention to relationships and stuff. I'm always busy with my group of friends, like i have to organize some days for my different group of friends just to keep in touch. For now, i don't know if there's room for a relationship. Somehow i don't think i can be a good boyfriend cause i don't have those kind of boyfriend characteristics in me. I won't scold, i won't bother what you're doing and stuff. hahaha i have a short attention span. I feel as if i'm so damn busy. Like today, i have to go shopping, meet up with an old friend, then meet another friend, tomorrow i have to go out again. lol

Whatever it is, i have another reason that i don't wanna get in a relationship. Fear of being hurt. I'm used to being around with nice people, i always have no enemies, if there's a political issue, i'd be the neutral one etc. \m/ for me hahhahah Anyway, i'm focusing on making lotsa money. I have money now but i want MORE! lol i gotta be ambitious cause without it, people will go nowhere, like seriously.

I have work to do now :) Bye.

I was and now i am.

Hey there (; Yet again, i've abandoned my blog AGAIN and AGAIN. I just can't help it because there's so much too do with too little time given. Something like that? Yup. I've been planning about doing some business stuffs but i can't cause i don't have time. TIME is the thing that i really need cause it seems that 4 hours is like 1 hour to me. People may say time flies when you're having fun. But for me , when you have fun or when you're bored, it doesn't matter. Time still flies.

How am i during my mia session? I'm great and yes my hair have grown! :) I love it. I'm sorry for this short post but it's better than nothing. :)

Life Handbook

Mood: Excited

Music: Glee-Thong Song

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2009.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day.. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:

11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra Class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:

25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

Haunted places

Mood: Happy

Music: SNSD - Oh!

Hello, yup i'm happy. Why? I've made a few $$ online, with my product sales, twitter, and also forex trading. :) I'll slowly save up the money for my future use. Anyway, there's alot of haunted places in Singapore. Well, they're called haunted basically is because the place have been abandoned for quite some time already and yeah, it's dark and some people MAY have seen a few 'things' there.

I've been to some of the haunted places in Singapore. And luckily i have not seen anything yet so far. Some of the places i've been are Institute of Mental Hospital at Woodlands, Red house at Pasir Ris, Old Changi Hospital and Kampung Wak Hassan at Sembawang Park and i think that's about it. I know there's many more places i've yet to explore.

I hope time will allow me to explore more of the places in Singapore that are haunted yeah? haha. Oh, can't wait for a team from Singapore who caught a few footage of the things they saw at Old Changi Hospital. See ya!

Breakout 2010

Mood: Pissed

Music: Iyaz - Solo

Why am i pissed? My Adobe photoshop license has expired. Dang! Never mind, i'll get it soon. Anyway, heard of breakout 2010? My friend told me that it's awesome, the best ever! I want to watch it but i heard the tickets are already sold out. There's another way, by signing up for some phone then you'll get the tickets for free but nah, maybe i'll find it in forums or something. As you can see, i've just entered the Alice in Wonderland gala premier preview contest. I hope i'll win this one cause i really want to watch it. Not that i don't have any money to watch it but i want to watch it before everyone does. Then i'll feel kinda special :) hee I've been really busy these days cracking my head cause i've got many campaigns to complete for my twitter account. Many campaigns = $$ and that's a good thing for me.

I hope there's time for me to go to the gym later. I've been bumming and i must say that i'm getting out of shape lor. HAHA this coming friday, i'll be going to east coast park for cycling, maybe swimming and whatsoever. I'll enjoy this week for sure :) Oh, most probably there's soccer after that with my friends. Hmm, before i end my post, i hope things will get better for me, if not, make it worst please. HAHAHAHA correct what! there's only 2 pathways in life, happy path or the shitty path.

Alice in Wonderland

Mood: Shagged

Music: Andrew Garcia - Straight up (Acoustic)

Remember reading a book called "Alice In Wonderland"? Written by Tim Burton. During my primary school days, i'd read it during recess and during my free time. I can say that the book is awesome and now they have come out with the MOVIE! How wicked is that? See the trailer for yourself!

It's damn awesome right? Told ya! In Alice in Wonderland, there are many characters in it that makes it so interesting BUT the one i'm interested in is The Cheshire Cat. Why? It's really cool, the way it talks, everything about the cat is cool. The Cheshire Cat is depicted as an intelligent yet mischievous character that sometimes helps Alice and sometimes gets her into trouble.

Yeah, see that freaky smile? I love that :) And i love the way it leaves the place, vanishes into thin air HAHAHA I know you must be agreeing with me on how cool it is right? Yeah, i know, it's hard to deny.

“Catch Alice in Wonderland Movie starting from 4th March 2010 and join the official Facebook and Twitter page!”

Iron Man 2

Mood: Cranky

Music: Adam Lambert - For your entertainment

As you can see, the drawings here are totally awesome. You know why? Cause they drew IRON MAN! & WAR MACHINE! imagine if they were to draw a dog? It'll be dull, yeah i know. Presenting war machine and then iron man. I prefer the top one, definitely.

I really can't wait for Iron Man 2 to come out in the cinemas! Will definitely watch it! Looks like stark is gaining fame in the movie itself and i suppose the US government asked him to give them the iron man's details to them. Might be cause they think it's a threat. Hmm, the villian is Whiplash i think. It has the same strength as iron man and he whips up things all over the place. (i guess so?) Oh, 1 iron man isn't enough? Now there's war machine! HAHAHA it's damn cool cause it has guns on its shoulders and it's grey in color. CooooooL.

Rock on iron man 2! (: i'd like to watch it at Vivo City. Watch with class HAHA

Backpack

Mood: Relaxed

Music: Iyaz - Solo

Had some rennovation going on in here. I don't have any links or what comment thingy already. So, i doubt i'll have any page rank. I don't care about that. I gave it a thought about it, this is my personal blog lor. Anyway, i used Adobe Photoshop CS4 and did some designs but it's kinda crappy cause it's my second attempt. Used lineart to design the pictures. I'll get the hang of it soon :)

Basically, i need help from you guys. I know some of you can see the ads popping out from the Nuffnang logo, and i need you guys to click on it as much as possible. Thanks people! Currently there's this advertisement about breathe.sg ? The trailer is kinda cool, i'll check it out later. It's been 2 days already since i smoked. My laziness stopped me from buying a new pack! But not today, i'll go out soon and buy a new pack.

It's been quite a while since i entered some Nuffnang contest and i miss those days HAHAHA. I'll participate it soon ~ i promise. Till then, goodbye!

Follow me on twitter yeah. Twitter.com/holiecowally

Testing.

Mood: Busy

Music: Sum 41 - Over My Head

It's in construction guys. Will be back soon.

That's why i don't like it.

Let's talk about ARMPIT HAIR!

With great power comes great responsibility.

With lots of armpit hair, comes great fragrance.

Shave it people.

Comeback!

Firstly, i would like to apologize to my blog! Hee It's like been quite some time since i've updated this blog you know. Hmm, it's cause i've been busy with all the hectic schedules and stuffs. AND! i've been very tired these few days because of that. YUP! But don't worry, i'll make myself free from now onwards and i wont let this blog rust or even die HAHAHA but not to the extend that i'm going to participate in nuffnang's contests la. Cause then i'll be very busy cracking my head into what to write and all that.

First and foremost, i would wish all the Chinese people out there a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! If you're married, gei wo angpao :B HAHAHA During chinese new year, i went to orchard, actually for shopping but then, ALL THE SHOPS WERE CLOSED! Damn, but never the mind, i'll go there this coming weekdays or something.

I hate my new hair, like seriously. I told the uncle to cut slope the sides but then he cut it as if i wanted a flat top hair. EEEEE. Gotta wear cap now and wait for it to grow nicely :)

I've got to learn html codings cause i want a custom made blogskin. :/ i'll achieve that someday HOPEFULLY! :) Oh, talking about designs, my friend is going to teach this secondary school about photoshop, i think it's north brooks secondary this coming wednesday and i'm going to be his assistant HAHAHA! So, to those who is in that school and you know me, do say hi HAHAHA

So, i'll be doing some research about photoshop tonight :/

Owl city - Vanilla Twillight

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

Worst day of my life!

I am seriously feeling fucked up now. Why? Cause i overslept and didn't go for the fico tournament. I woke up in a shocked state. ^&%%&^$&^!! i was really looking foward for this you know! :(((

But oh well, what can i do. Let bygones be bygones yeah? :( Sorry guys, i didnt turned up. Luckily you found a replacement. damn, i should give all my friends my house number so they can call my house if i don't pick up my phone. I'm still pissed with myself and can't believe i didnt turn up for a soccer tournament. SHIT.

Anyway, me and cherie were talking about gangsters HAHAHAHA They're wasting the earth's space and stuff and it's really true. Making the world more polluted. Okay, here's some of the things, from my point of view on how gangsters are like at friendster or facebook.

Ah Bengs / Ah lians

- Their pictures will have that peace on their cheek posing and for the bengs, they will take pictures with their "brothers" without any shirt on to show off their tattoos but then, most of them will be fucking skinny.

Indian gangsters

-Pictures taken with their gang, most importantly, a bottle of beer or liquor in their hands or is placed at the table.

Malay gangsters

-Pictures with their gang members, with the tongue wanting to go out from the cheek and oh, will take pictures of them with their bikes.

okay then, that's about it. I love my google chrome! I can surf the net with top speed now without any lags! :))

Lost

Hello, the title for this post is like so funny! HAHA It doesnt mean that i'm lost in Singapore, cannot find my own house or anything like that but it means i'm like lost about what's happening around me cause i always book in from Sunday night to Friday siol. >:/ How to have a life? Okay, anyways, last week, we had a haircut session and i skipped it. This whole week, i successfully escaped the haircut! ^^ BUT there's another one on Monday! Like WHAT THE FUCK?! And i thought i'm going to pass out with hair. Argh, never mind. I'll think of a way ah. ((:

Oh, have you all read about the girl who kena molest at the Sentosa Beach Party and Singaporeans who didn't do anything? Frankly speaking, from what i can see, most Singaporeans aren't concern about all this shit. They won't help the helpless girl. I felt sorry for her la but on the other hand, why did she "welcome" the molesters ? I meant why did she wear g string undies and the bra, it's like putting a honey on yourself sia and waiting for the bees to come. Stupid girl. But i still feel sorry for her.

I'm up early today! And when i woke up, i saw 2 Oreo(s) :P And i ate it HAHAHAHA

Enjoy your weekend people :)

p/s: once a person is attached, i won't bother :D

I'm so proud to be a student of NYP. NYP Kia :D

Everything is coming round now.

I talked to cherie about some things uh. She shared a story bout this guy and i told her about mine la. I felt emo ah talking to her cause it's like the things that happened to us is the same! HAHAHA both of us are monogamous type of person but people don't see that. It's like they think they know who we are but actually they don't. Something like that uh. She'll be one of my best friend :)

Anyway, i played soccer just now and it was tiring. After that went to al ameen to have our supper. I'm feeling moodless right now cause of some things. Actually there's nothing to be moodless about but i dont know why i'm feeling this way. fuck. hahahah i think i'm quite a busy guy cause there's many friends of mine i haven't had the time to meet them LOL and i'm feeling bad

1. Slack with geraldine
2. Dinner with carollette
3. Go out with Jun Xiang
4. Outing with my squad mates

It's like i can't find time uh cause i always have plans during my weekends. Maybe after i've post out, then i'll go meet them ah. Sorry guys.

3 more weeks and i'm out from BMT

Goodnight :)