2011

Happy New Year everyone. :) It's January already? So fast huh. Well, honestly i dont like 2010 that much but imma let bygones be bygones. I've told myself not to ever look back. Life is too short to be sad or even be angry at anyone. 2011, you're going to be the year that i'll appreciate meaning that i'm going to appreciate anyone i know like fully. My family, i've been abandoning them cause of all the things that has happened. I wanna travel around with them (: For my bestfriends, i'm sorry that i've been abandoning you guys as well. I'll make up for the lost times between us and i'll make plans for us. Yknow, i've realised that somehow we will eventually treat things as if they are something special to us but as time passes by, we'll feel that it's nothing to us. For instance if i were to buy a psp, it'll be the most exciting thing that has happened in my life before and before i know it, it'll be in my cupboard, rotting. It applies to all the things around us, same goes for people. But at one point of time, you'll start to miss it. Everytime it's like that.

I know i've been behaving strangely lately. I'm sure some of my friends realise that. I'm sorry but the things that happened really affected me. But it's all behind me now. I dont plan to look back and keep trying. It's worthless, i'm tired of all the lies, irony and excuses. So, whatever it is, i'm NEVER gonna look back. In time to come, some may say that i'm mean or whatever but i was in a mess and i can only think of leaving since i'll always end up hurting myself and being betrayed over and over again when i keep going back. It's obviously not good for myself.

Anyways, it's only January and i'm worried if the world is gonna end in 2012. I try my best not to believe it but there's so many rumours and all. So, i'll take this chance to pray and hope that i'll never regret whatever decisions i have or will make in time to come. :) So, enjoy your new year everyone. Oh, my resolution, i just want my old self back. Being happy and carefree. Goodnight.

I know its not your fault, but I'm a locked door

And inside I'm a mess by someone before
And I wish that I, I could find a key
To unlock all the things that you want us to be
Let me open up and start again,
But there's a safe around my heart
I don't know how to let you in,
And that's what keeps us apart
And that's why I need time.
I said I need you,
I need you to understand, you, you, you
Call up the locksmith,
Tell him we need him quick
We've got a million keys,
None of them seem to fit
While you're on the phone,
call up the clocksmith,
Cuz I could use some time,
Even the slightest bit
Let me open up and start again,
And break this safe around my heart
I don't know how to let you in,
And that's what keeps us apart
And that's why I need time
I said I need you
I need you to understand, you, you, you
I'm thinking now's the time,
Maybe its time to go, if I gave you my heart, be gentle,
I'm tired of laying low, lets give the world a show
And when you know, you know,
And when you know, you know, you know
And when you know, you know, you know, you know
And that's why I need time
I said I need you,
I need you to understand.

Maybe it's time.

A year from now.

Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in silence and short remark,
I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were, what happened?
You were a priority, was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?

Rewind.

i dont just like you for who you are. I liked you for what i am when i'm with you.

My night has become a sunny dawn when i'm with you.

Your words are my food.

I'll always remember you by.

Goodnight.

Rewind

How I wanted you here by my side
I know what I said but I lied
It looked like a laugh but I cried
Oh, I wish I could push rewind

Oh, stupid pride it just can't hide the holes inside my heart
'Cause I need you here with me
Oh, I wish that I could take it back, I'd go back to the start
And tell you all the things that I feel

'Cause everything is different now
I'd really like to tell you how

How I wanted you here by my side
I know what I said but I lied
It looked like a laugh but I cried
'Cause I wish I could push rewind

I saw you on the corner holding hands with someone new
Happy as a boy could be
Love was in your eyes and yeah she looked the same way too
It's funny that was almost me

Now I wanna be there by your side
I know what I said but I lied
I wanted to laugh but I cried
'Cause it's too late to push rewind

Oh no, oh no, no, no, no
No, no, no, no, no
I know what I said but I lied
Oh no, oh no, now I cried

Just too late, too late, too late, too late, too late
Oh no, it's just too late, too late, too late, too late
I can't push rewind, oh no, no
It's too late