2011

Happy New Year everyone. :) It's January already? So fast huh. Well, honestly i dont like 2010 that much but imma let bygones be bygones. I've told myself not to ever look back. Life is too short to be sad or even be angry at anyone. 2011, you're going to be the year that i'll appreciate meaning that i'm going to appreciate anyone i know like fully. My family, i've been abandoning them cause of all the things that has happened. I wanna travel around with them (: For my bestfriends, i'm sorry that i've been abandoning you guys as well. I'll make up for the lost times between us and i'll make plans for us. Yknow, i've realised that somehow we will eventually treat things as if they are something special to us but as time passes by, we'll feel that it's nothing to us. For instance if i were to buy a psp, it'll be the most exciting thing that has happened in my life before and before i know it, it'll be in my cupboard, rotting. It applies to all the things around us, same goes for people. But at one point of time, you'll start to miss it. Everytime it's like that.

I know i've been behaving strangely lately. I'm sure some of my friends realise that. I'm sorry but the things that happened really affected me. But it's all behind me now. I dont plan to look back and keep trying. It's worthless, i'm tired of all the lies, irony and excuses. So, whatever it is, i'm NEVER gonna look back. In time to come, some may say that i'm mean or whatever but i was in a mess and i can only think of leaving since i'll always end up hurting myself and being betrayed over and over again when i keep going back. It's obviously not good for myself.

Anyways, it's only January and i'm worried if the world is gonna end in 2012. I try my best not to believe it but there's so many rumours and all. So, i'll take this chance to pray and hope that i'll never regret whatever decisions i have or will make in time to come. :) So, enjoy your new year everyone. Oh, my resolution, i just want my old self back. Being happy and carefree. Goodnight.