i wont be making this a great post for myself. I need to admit that i'm feeling shitty. Just plain shitty right now. I am sorry but i can't help it. But i'll get better tomorrow and the day after and followed by another day etc. i tried entering the portal even though it looks like it's closing, slim chances of me getting through it but at least i've tried. never have i seen myself...........................................no use continuing this. It'd make things harder. I read, i cry, might as well, i watch sad movies. It's my blog, i need to feel good reading it. Not the other way round. Whatever happens,

it is just a ride.

i'm hungry and i need to go to the toilet. hahaha byebye. I promise the next post will be a proper one. :)