A year from now.

Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in silence and short remark,
I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were, what happened?
You were a priority, was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?

Rewind.

i dont just like you for who you are. I liked you for what i am when i'm with you.

My night has become a sunny dawn when i'm with you.

Your words are my food.

I'll always remember you by.

Goodnight.

Rewind

How I wanted you here by my side
I know what I said but I lied
It looked like a laugh but I cried
Oh, I wish I could push rewind

Oh, stupid pride it just can't hide the holes inside my heart
'Cause I need you here with me
Oh, I wish that I could take it back, I'd go back to the start
And tell you all the things that I feel

'Cause everything is different now
I'd really like to tell you how

How I wanted you here by my side
I know what I said but I lied
It looked like a laugh but I cried
'Cause I wish I could push rewind

I saw you on the corner holding hands with someone new
Happy as a boy could be
Love was in your eyes and yeah she looked the same way too
It's funny that was almost me

Now I wanna be there by your side
I know what I said but I lied
I wanted to laugh but I cried
'Cause it's too late to push rewind

Oh no, oh no, no, no, no
No, no, no, no, no
I know what I said but I lied
Oh no, oh no, now I cried

Just too late, too late, too late, too late, too late
Oh no, it's just too late, too late, too late, too late
I can't push rewind, oh no, no
It's too late

memoir's

I am the one with the tie. next to the teacher :) was a prefect and it's kinda unbelievable. Those glory days hahaha

once upon a time

okay so here's the story. Actually it's not a story. it's my childhood past.

There's a girl involved in my childhood past. We only talked once. For a few mins. She asked my name and all. It was during the racial harmony art exhibition. I was more nerdy back then - with my spectacles, side parting hair + gel on it and high waist shorts. I was very shy and quiet and she talked to me. I was very happy cause she was my eye candy. The only girl in primary school that i had a crush on. I had a flashback a few years ago about her and it's been nine years or is it 10? A decade? i tried finding her on friendster (back then) and now facebook but to no avail.

Description.

She was friendly looking, with a tied up hair, wore spectacles, she's super smart. She was in the third smartest class in school and everything about her was perfect. Up till yesterday, thats how she was in my mind. That's how i'd expect her to be in the present. With spectacles, looking smart and cute.

Everytime i typed in her name in the search box and i couldnt find her. In my mind, i thought she'd migrated to study or something. Eventually i found one of her bestfriend on facebook and i asked her. She told me h was in her friend's list. I was more than happy. She gave me her facebook name and....that was when everything came to a disappointment.

1. There was a guy in the picture. I assumed it's her bf and yes it is.

2. In her pictures, she had piercings on her eyebrows.

3. She drinks and smoke.

4. Apparently my friend knows her and she's even more "wild" than i thought.

i didnt think that things can be more worst after seeing her pictures. you cant judge someone anyway. but after i heard things from my friend, i got even more disappointed.

The cute girl, my primary school eyecandy turned out to be someone whom i didnt expect her to be. Oh well.